Giving up

I wanted to write this cause this might be the last time I write in here things have happened that have just finish me I have no hope I feel alone and like I can't fight to live anymore I saw the doctors last night cause I'm thinking of just ending it it'd be better off for me is what I think so I have to stay home fir 3 days but I'd rather not be here I'd rather be at the hospital cause I don't trust anyone her I'm not gona eat and I probley won't get any sleep cause right now I'm out of it but oh well it's the hand I get dealt and for what I didn't mean to do what I did but oh well I guess I deserve it I just won't trust no one anymore cause I give up