When I go

I'm depressed ya and I don't tell ppl what I'm feeling cause I'm stubron and don't trust very many ppl but reasons why I'm depressed 1 my brother is an ass 2 I feel like most ppl don't even care to help me 3 I still love that girl and want her back but feel like that might not happen 4 this is the big 1 I regret the way I treated her everyday even though she said it's fine I feel like it's not I was really mean to her I didn't mean to hurt her and I don't want to anymore I do love her alot. But lately I've been thinking of cutting or killing myself so if I do when I die don't hold me back just let me go.