Old memories

U know what I hate so bad is when I can sit upstairs and just get lost in memories from last year. I see that I was happy with that girl that when I had her I was so stupid not to realize what I had. I actually had someone who made me happy,who cared for me,who loved me with all there heart and would never leave me but thinks happend and I lost her. But the thing is I want her back so bad that I'll love her no matter what I'll work on making myself better and geting me happy again and ya ill look back at those memories even though they might kill me. I just hope I'm strong enough not to let them kill me